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Can I borrow your stuff?

I have a closet filled with many fashionable pieces – blouses, skirts, dresses, scarves, jewelry, shoes, you name it. And if you’re a girlfriend of mine who happens to wear the same size then you’ve probably borrowed some items from my closet. I love sharing. I love that my same size girlfriends get as much joy out of wearing a dress or top of mine as I do.

Recently, I faced a problem where my friend is not returning my clothing cleaned. It seems that I have to ask or remind them to clean my items before they return them. I always receive this weird look on their faces as if I’m asking them to clean my hamsters’ cage or clean up my bathroom. It’s the oddest reaction and I end up feeling bad about asking them.

Another problem I faced when borrowing my clothing, shoes or jewelry to my friends is when they did not returning them promptly. As the lender, why should I be the one calling and hunting down for my items? Why should I have to do this? I shouldn’t.

There are rules to borrowing a friend’s personal items. If you wear it, clean it before you return it. Return the item in a timely manner or ask how long you can keep the item. Not hard, very simple, right?

A replacement top I get from a friend who have accidentally lose my favorite designer top.

I finally got myself a contact lenses. Whee~

After many years of suffering bad eyesight, I finally decided to get myself a pair of contact lens today! Many are surprised when they find out that I wasn’t wearing one before this. Yup… I sometimes torture myself by not wearing my specs. 

It was these last few years that it got so bad that I can’t even read the menu over the counter. It got to the point that I can’t take it anymore and so today finally i bought them. The optician gave me a shock when they say I might have astigmatism. Hope it’s not so bad and that it won’t go up any higher.

I wore contacts before but only for a month and that was it. I’m surprised that i was able to put them on quite ‘easily’ last time but this time round, I spent half an hour just to get 2 of them on! My sister was laughing her heart out watching me.

As I’m writing this, it still feels a bit uncomfortable but i can see so much better now. It’s like a whole new world. How i envy those with perfect eyesight.

Welcoming 2010

So 2009 has come to a closure and now we’ve welcomed 2010. I know many who had their shares of ups and downs but if i had to say one thing, it’s good riddance 2009. Not in a bad ‘thank God it’s over’ kinda way though but more like ‘phew’… I’ve made it through’ and I’m still in one piece! You never know what you’re running into till the last corner and bang you walked into a wall.

Did you ever realize that life has a way of making you think that you’ve always got things under control only to find that our grasp just wasn’t tight enough or for whatever reason and it runs like sand through your fingers? Taking precautions might be a good idea for once.

But anyway, how’s the resolution counter doing this year? I think i have a whole list of them but i just never bothered to sort them out. I’m just not that disciplined to stick to one anyway. I do however have a goal this year and that’s as far as i would mention. Not much but hey, it’s just my way of saying I’m still alive.

New semester up next so that’s a biggie for me. Hopefully I’ll get to go back and have a lil frenzy time with my friends!

So what’s cooking this year?

FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN GIRL & BOY: Is It Just An EXCUSE?

This is a timeless question that spans the generations. If you ask ten different people for their opinion on the subject you will likely get ten different answers and reasons for why they believe what they believe. My opinion – it depends on the people involved.

I think there are some people who can form friendships with the opposite sex and have it remain a friendship and nothing more. They are aware of their own personal boundaries and have the ability to enforce these boundaries at will. Most important, they are also able to distinguish the difference between friendship and a romantic relationship, which may be the key to their success.

There are others, however, who are not able to form successful friendships with the opposite sex. They may be too easily tempted by kindness and flirtation, or they may not be able to easily distinguish the difference between a friendship and a romantic relationship. Some may even have difficulty either setting boundaries or enforcing them. Regardless of the reason, some people simply should not form friendships with the opposite sex because it just doesn’t work for them. Regardless of which category you fall into, it is important to understand that given the nature of the male/female relationship there are always risks associated with forming these friendships.

In order to form a true friendship there must be an element of trust between both parties. This trust, this understanding, can cause a great deal of confusion if you’re not careful. If this person becomes your confidant, for example, and you find yourself turning to them when life becomes difficult, or when you need advice, this understanding can easily be confused with romantic attraction. If you’ve ever had a friend or acquaintance that you suddenly find yourself looking at differently, in a more attractive and romantic way, then you know how easily the line between friendship and romantic attraction can be crossed.

Forming friendships with the opposite sex can become particularly complicated if you are already involved in a romantic relationship with a significant other. This is especially true if you turn to your “friend” for advice about your relationship. Though turning to your friend may seem harmless, you could easily become attracted to their sympathy, compassion and ultimately to them, especially if you are in a vulnerable state of mind. This could not only cause mixed emotions for you, but also friction between you and your significant other.

Also, as genuine of a friend as this person may seem, how can you ever be truly sure that their intention, or that the advice that they give you is meant with your best interest in mind? It’s true that not everybody would take advantage of your vulnerability and intentionally (or even subtly) lead you astray. The truth, however, is that you never really know what is going on in someone else’s mind and so you can never really be sure of their true intent. For all you know this person is just waiting for you to be single again so that they can build on the relationship that you have already allowed them to establish with you. After all, why is it that they are taking valuable time out of their hectic life to console you? Why would they break their own plans simply to listen to you complain about your relationship? And why do they care so much about your personal life if not to become more of a part of it?

My intent is not to evoke fear, or to advise you not to trust anybody of the opposite sex. My intent is to simply illustrate how the male/female friendship is extremely complex. If you insist on forming friendships with the opposite sex, at least take a few minutes to set some ground rules. Decide what you will and will not discuss with this person, and make sure that your relationship with this friend is clearly defined in your own mind before you choose to pursue it. If this sounds like too much work, play it safe and simply don’t turn to your girl/guy friend for consolation.

Everybody’s different. Some people can form successful friendships with members of the opposite sex, while others are better off staying clear of them. There is no right or wrong answer because no situation is ever black and white. Just remember that sometimes it’s not so much a matter of whether or not you choose to form these friendships, as it is about the boundaries you set for yourself and your willingness to stick to them that can make all the difference.

P.S: To anyone who got offended by this post, well it is for you. DEAL with it! Don’t whine your way out of it.

Wrinting on behalf of my friend :D

The Backstreet Boys said it best: “Quit playin’ games with my heart”. I feel like getting on top of a mountain and sing that to every guy who has ever effed with me or to any other girls in that matter.

What the eff is up with the games? Why do guys do one things (kiss you) and then confuse the hell out of you? Why do they play with your head so you can’t do anything but think of them, emotionally eat, then think about them some more?

Why can’t we all just say what we mean and stop making calculated moves? It’s all a big waste of time and I’m sick of it. If you like me, tell me. If you don’t, fine. But don’t purposely not call me because you want me to think about you and then, just when I’m on the brink of being over it, say something cute in a text message.

Guys make me crazy and I needed to know why they feel the need to do so. Apparently, it’s our entire fault…

Am I Worth It?

Sometimes you have to put walls around you;

not to keep people out,

but to see who cares enough

to break them down just to be with you.

The Path I Choose

A friend of mine once said before he past away, “There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.”

So what will it be for you? Lately, I know that we are all tired of the way we live. I’m just trying to find my way. I guess, I am one of those who fight to find their own way.

I’ve got to move on and be who I am. Don’t want to leave it all behind but when I get my hopes up, I have to watch them fall every time. It’s just too hard to see it all slowly fade away from me. Now, I got to do what’s best for me.

Sigh~

This feeling inside is empty as though as I’m emotionless. I am losing the momentum. Perhaps the feelings built in are growing exponentially and I can’t barely think anymore.

Why is it so hard for us to stop hurting each other when we know that it’s torturing us inside?

People always talk about how great it is to be in love, but I never heard about the downside of love until I fell in love with you. I learned that it isn’t all rosés, flowers and candy. Love is pain, hurt and sorrow.

But at the end of the day if we can still look into each other’s eyes and realize that nothing’s changed, and the love is still there, then I know we have a love that’s worth fighting and hanging on to.

Pissed Off. So, FUCK OFF!

"When a man is wrong and won't admit it, he always gets angry." – Haliburton

Everyone have limits, and I have been extremely liberal about some things. But there is just so much one can take.

I suppose everyone has their own equal amount of rights. But even equal rights are bound to limitations. I am quite lenient when it comes to terms of give-and-take, and respecting others belief/opinions even though it contradicts mine. Too lenient in my opinion, that I feel being taken advantage of my “kindness” (choke-puke-gag).

Let me be straight to the point here. Normally I would not care less with mediocre actions inflicted upon me, nor libels and slandering. Promises made over and over again, but never fulfilled – I get agitated by it.

The elasticity of a rubber band has its limit. I let people have their own way, until certain extend which I cannot tolerate any longer.

See, all I ask in return is just something simple. And it is not difficult to carry out. I would very much appreciate it if people respect my privacy, in every single way. That is not very hard to fulfill, isn’t it? Leave me alone and let me do my stuff PEACEFULLY.

Now, why is it so difficult for some people? Demanding respect on privacy, but show none in return.