SiGH!
I wish I could forward my life and see what will happen next.
Its always hard knowing which one to listen to, the heart or the head?
Why do they have to speak different language?
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I want to make myself DISAPPEAR
…just heaven and I.
Life is scaring me. It’s getting tougher and more challenging to live on my own as days go by. I’m chasing after my goals, hopes and expectations. Those initiate me to hold on. I can’t and won’t let go.
I belong somewhere else because I know I don’t belong HERE. Everything has been fated, I believe so. I’m HERE to view things in a wider way. This freaky place gives me a kind of vibe which I bet you won’t like it either.
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Falling Out of LOVE
It’s always sad when things fall apart.
In fact, I hate knowing when they do. 
Question: Do all good things REALLY have to end?
I mean, what’s the point of having it good if you’re going to have to give it back anyway? And can we really make it last longer than it should? Can’t it just be?
Another break-up. Another pair of shattered hearts. Not like it’s any of my business really but since I know the two of you – I hope you guys are alright and please know that I’m here for either one of you. If you need someone. Anyone, at all.
Wedding & Marriage
It seems that most the people around me are getting married.
Ah, maybe not directly connected, but still, they are getting married. They are taking that giant leap of faith. You know, the responsibility that they have to carry together. This weight they have to lift, the lives they have to combined.
Did I mention the life they would have to nourish and nurture?
Oh boy.
Most of them are in their mid and late twenties. But seriously, its a big step. I wonder when my closed 20-something friends are getting married. Haha…It would be hilarious.
Would they invite people to their wedding through Facebook’s RSVP? Attending, Not attending, Maybe Attending.
It would be even more hilarious.
Talk about advanced and new generation. As if wasting trees for their fancy wedding invitations aren’t adequate. Then again, you only get married only once.
Ooops, maybe you would get the chance to get married again. I mean, isn’t that the trend? Nikah, cerai, nikah lagi, cerai lagi. Yada… Yada…
My point is, marriage is a huge step. I mean, its not just mere signing documents, legalize your sexual intercourses and all. Its about uh, combining two souls, lives. And uh perhaps love? Its not the hardest nor easiest thing in the world. Its just big, huge. Bigger than your body.
Imagine managing your household economy. Bills, who pay this, who pay that? Electric bills dah nak naik. Minyak kereta lagi. Soon, monthly rentals. Groceries! Miscellaneous? Who knows when your pipe lines in your house might give you problems. Or maybe that stupid dumb lock at your front door is not working. See? Money. I mean, even in a relationship you want to manage your funds together pun might lead to an argument. What more when you’re married. Don’t get me started when you’re expecting a baby.
Then comes the in-laws. You know you would have to constantly make them happy. Who wouldn’t want their kid to be in good hands? Pretending in their presence would not help. I mean, its a form hypocrisy.
And all that things you’re suppose to be in it together. Ah, heavy stuff. I mean, well, hidup sendiri sekarang ni pun tak terurus, lagi nak kahwin. Ish. Mati okay.
But I’m sure they know what they’re doing. Maybe they have managed their lives well and it is time to merge them. The more the merrier right? Lol.
All the best. Love always wins right?
Haha… pardon me for thinking about marriage. All these wedding invitations and stories are making me think!
Category: Relationship, Love & Dating
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Ying Ye 3+1 (My Best Pals)
Ying Ye 3+1 is a bit less cheesy than average but you still have some cheesy moments. I don’t know how you’re supposed to feel watching these.. Are you supposed to be moved? Or maybe to dream about it? To wish your boyfriend would look at you with that ever longing gaze ? Or to smile idiotically? You think about it.
Ah, I enjoy laughing while watching it. So, no problem here. Would be nice if you could tell me in my comments if you smile or laugh when u watched it. In these drama have the traditional hug scenes between the scared lead girl and super hot male, the hug under the rain, the hug under no rain, the I-end-up-by-mistake-in-your-bed scene, the traditional jealousy tantrums and so on. Every ingredients of a romance drama should have.
All in all, I LOVE IT! “I said I’ll beat chu down!”
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Even though my eyes are shut, I can still see colors crystal clearly. That’s when I think it is no big deal to be blind. At times, I wish I am, when what’s real and what’s not are lucid… but it becomes such a big deal to not see faces of loves.
Even though I don’t listen, I can still know what is going on. That’s when I think it is no big deal to be deaf. At times, I wish I am, when truth and lies mix in a confused way… but it becomes such a big deal to not hear the sound of thunderstorm and voices of people who say they love me.
Even though I don’t speak, I can still write and, isn’t it true you say it best when you say nothing at all? That’s when I think it is no big deal to be mute. At times, I wish I am, when honesty does not come along within… but it becomes such a big deal to not reply ”I love you too” back.
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What do you do???!
When you know things are uncertain, but you proceed dealing with it,
When you want to reach something so high but the sky has its limit,
When you wish someone would understand you inside out,
When you feel so right, but things are actually so wrong,
When you have to take risk with the lights off,
When the truth hurts but you have no choice except to tell the truth,
What do you do?
I just killed a cockroach. Why didn’t I feel like a superhero.
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One Last Thing
Life isn’t what you always wish for. The heartache is more than what I could take. But I guess I still have to get over it and be done with. One last thing for you:
Sorry, I’m not perfect.
I’ll annoy you, make you mad,
say stupid things,
and then take them back.
I will look crappy most of the time.
I have the worst temper of all.
But put all of that aside,
you will never find a girl who cares and loves more about you than I do
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Emo-ing
Okay. I’m feeling so emo right now… for some reasons. Isn’t it weird, when suddenly you get this moment of silence while talking to someone? Especially when it doesn’t happen frequently right?
Lots of stuff has been going on lately. Something is always behind my mind. And it makes me doubt, am I on the right track? Should I make a different move? Or should I just go with the flow? It’s my destiny and my future in my own hands. Make it? Or break it?
It’s left me teary, happy, frustrated, confused, angry… just a ‘rojak’ of feelings. I’ve put in deep thoughts but sometimes it just doesn’t work. Listen to my conscience? Or listen to my heart? Problems. It’s what makes us stronger day by day though.
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