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What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

(Not seeing that loving you)
That’s what I was trying to do

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Listening to What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts.

I am so crazy over this song. Anyone can gimme this song. Pretty please!!!

Listening to this makes me go emo.

But I’m alright =) Just a temporary break down where I get during my period.

I will always be alright even when I’m not alright what does that suppose to mean? i don’t even know it myself

Headache and stomach ache is killing me!

Digital Logic mid-term is today and hope everything is alright.

Good night everyone!

 

 

Engine Math? DONE! Digital Logic? NOT DONE!

i like engine math…
engine math is easy…
i can do engine math…
easy peasy…..

and again…

i like digital logic…
digital logic is easy…
i can do digital logic…
easy peasy…..

and again…

i like engine math…
engine math is easy…
i can do engine math…
easy peasy…..

and again…

i like digital logic…
digital logic is easy…
i can do digital logic…
easy peasy…..


ok..time to stop and do some studying!!!
digital logic test is on thursday and im shitting in my new shorts!

ok…one more time wont hurt…

i like digital logic…
digital logic is easy…
i can do digital logic…
easy peasy…..

YES LYANA!!!

YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

Hush… My secret love affair.

Hush… It’s a secret. He doesn’t know about this.

MY CONFESSION!

…about my secret love affair. About how I adore my affair in secret. How I fantasize about it secretly. How my imaginations of my love affair become so real, I can feel my love affair’s presence beside me.

Hush… he doesn’t know. This secret love affair is between you and me. This post is dedicated to my secret love. You and me… sealed forever in time, held together forever by love and wanted forever by need.

Damnit! I miss my love affair every minute. I dream about it in class. I dream about it when I do things. I wish for my love affair to be beside me every single moment, awake or asleep.

It’s so hard having a secret affair. Cause you know that you love it for the rest of your life.

I just wanna kiss him. Just look at his lips, it’s so luscious. Every kiss is so sweet. Its such a tempting thought. I know its a crime. So, sue me for wanting to. It’s just so good. I’ll disclose a picture of him. I just had to let you know. I couldn’t keep it a secret anymore.

Love you so much dear.

So, now you know who is my secret affair is.

PS: Pain from my PMS has attack my brain. That’s explain this weird post. Do excuse my craziness.

-Blank-

Mid-term is coming up next week and I’m here blogging. wtf.

I still couldn’t feel the intense of Mid-Term.

I did badly for last semester.

I got almost all fail. Damnit! 

I gotta spend more time on my studies… I don’t wanna screw up again-lah.

Gotta go sleep now.

My plan of studying all night is screwed.

I am effing sleepy now even tho I slept this evening.

And owh, I got fatter already nowadays because I can’t resist food during the multiple breaks in between classes.

A good thing I think?

 

Before that…just to remind myself:

THINGS TO DO OVER THE WEEKEND

1. STUDY

2. STUDY

3. STUDY

 

That’s all I think…

Night!

Toodles!

 

With or without, it’s just the same.

Things that are unheard will eventually be the reasons why.

Perhaps it’s just nothing as one see.

But only one would know how damaging it could be.

Aslyn – That's When I Love You

When u have to look away
When u don’t have much to say
That’s when I love u
I love u just that way
To here u stumble when u speak
Or see u walk with two left feet
That’s when I love you
I love u endlessly
And when your mad cause u lost the game
Forget I’m waiting in the rain
Baby I love u
I love u anyway

Cause here’s my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that’s when I love u
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can’t get enough
That’s when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

So when u turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made u cry
That’s when I love u
I love u
A little more each time
And when u can’t quite match you clothes
Or when u laugh at your own jokes
that’s when I love u I love u
More then u know
And when u forgot that we had a date
Or that look that u give when u show up late
Baby I love u ,I love u anyway

So here’s my promise made tonight
U can count on me 4 life
Cause that’s when I love u
When nothing u do can change my moind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can’t get enough
That’s when I love u
When I love u
No matter what

Ohh that’s when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can’t get enough
That’s when I love u , when I love u no matter what

Ohhhh no matter what

Wardrobe Check List

 

  • Broken heels of no-so-new shoes. CHECK.
  • Bra strap snapped. CHECK.
  • Torn up jeans. CHECK

Practically covered every single area of my body. From top to bottom. Am I good or what?

The story begins like this:

I was pulling up my bra every 30 seconds to make sure my nips dont slip. Hahaha… then suddenly, SNAP! You know what happen

Because my heel broke, the bottom part lah… When I walk, there’s this irritating “KATIPANG… KATIPANG” noise. I swear 50m radius can hear that noise. How embarassing!

I don’t know how my jeans got toren up. Probably because I so damn ganas or I’ve gained some weight…  

Me Againts Myself

hope is given when faith is gone.

the truth turned out to be a mistake after all.

should i rejoice over it or feel sad as things are getting more complicated?

it’s me against my feelings now.

 

I’m so bloody stress out now. So many things to do, so little time. Sob3…

And yet, I’m still sitting here like I don’t have anything better to do.

Should have learn my lesson from my last semester result but heck, what am I doing now?

Bad girl… Very bad girl… Nur Liyana Ja’afar, when will you learn? (My parents will call me by my full name if I being a thick-headed..Lol!)

Regreting The Past?

As slight regrets slipped in through the late night horizon, i close my eyes, inhale deeply and tell myself to abandon the past. I always have a belief that is to live with the future. The old dusty past? Let the tickling time wipe it bit by bit off my memory. But can I hold on to that same belief now? God knows…

P.S: Nothing to worry about. I’m just regreting not doing well in my exams. Sob3!

Study + Sick = MISERY

I am now torn between studying for my supplementary or not.

URGH!!!

But I really don’t like wasting my Thursday morning not doing anything. Plus, I got 2 more damn supp paper to go.

Damn POTONG wei! I really want to study!

Adding up to my misery, I am having this really weird stomach ache since Monday. You really don’t want to know what’s going on. Trust me, you don’t.

URGH!!! Me no likey!


It’s funny how fast things died down when you got to hold of the truth.

Perhaps things are not just as real and serious as I thought it could be.

But just for that one moment, I thought it was for real.

SUPPLEMENTARY for me!

I have one and only solid week to work my ass of in my studies… Or should I say, for my SUPPLEMENTARY EXAM. Yeah, that’s right. I gotta sit for supplementary paper next week. And I’m so going to do my best for it. Well, I hope I do cause I don’t want to disappoint my parents and above all… MYSELF.

Yey! So now, STUDY TIME! I’m gonna be the nerd of the week. And in the month of NOVEMBER, my days are FULL with classes as I’m starting my second trimester for this academic year. Everyday full of classes! Morning till night, evening till night. Seriously super duper pack.

Any way, GOOD LUCK to all my friends who are going to sit for their SUPPLEMENTARY EXAMS this week. GAMBATE!!!

And good luck to me too. Ahaks! It’s seems like I don’t really have enough time for study all over again. Hopefully, the tutorial questions helps.

Gonna be overdosing myself with Coffee and RED BULL! Ahhh, red bull will be my love!

Gotta go study now. Bye!