GET LOST
SUMTHIN REALLY FCUKED UP HAPPEN 2DAY…
BUT NOT IN DA MOOD OF ELABORATIN IT…
SO, GET LOST!
I WANNA BE ALONE!!!
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Just Another Day
Haha… what’s wrong with me, man? I read through my old blog entries and found so many weird hangin sentences/spellin mistakes (purposely doin it… haha)/grammatical errors and no one even told me (they might havin much more? fun laughin on how sewel my language is…haiya). Damn embarassing. Most likely? dis will continue til? da end of days bcoz I dun re-read what I write and carefully re-edit my entry. Please la, takes damn long to write one entry, and I’m not really arsed to make it perfect.It’s more irritating if I really? DID take? da time to make everything all perfect and there would? STILL be errors in? da end. Anyway, I digress. Today has been a pretty weird day for me. Bare wit me to find out about it.
I forgot… I forgot… I forgot about a million things today. How could I forget? Am I really that frivolous a being? Am I really? dat filled with shopping and thoughts of my boyfriend that I could forget something that important? At? da moment, I’m keeping my fingers crossed? dat I? dun get my fcukin ass bitten due to this (forgotten, unspeakable horror). $hit! Guess I should use my phone’s? REMINDER to do something other than note down when the next? shoppin sale/concert/birthdays… etc?
Then there’s? dis pile of weird stuff goin around me at? da moment. Gee… I dunno know quite how to put it into words. Let’s just say? dat I really dunno know what is going on in my life. I feel? dat I’m being ‘rejected’, but it turns out? dat I’m being ‘proposed’. And being rushed up the aisle so to say.
OK, enough euphemisms for today. I’m sure you already got it right? Ya’ll smart people.
Anyway, I just realised something today… and? dat is? USJ people are like,? so damn rich. They are so rich? dat they make middle-class people look like? dirt poor. Like, I always thought? dat my family was middle-class, but as it turns out, apparently? da rich people think they are middle-class too, so what does? dat make me?
But it’s ok la, I dun think my parents are poor or blame them for not being richer. Cos anyhow my parents had “progressed” compared to their parents, so it’s like, going up one step in the rat race. Ok la, as long as there’s progression.
My friend commented? dat I’m so kiasu, but the moral of the story is? dat if you linger on, everyone will overtake you. So you always have to be on top of your game (dun blame me… da? WORLD made me do it).
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How Rare Is True Love Is, True Friendship Is Rarer
I wish dat things can stay as simple as it was last time.When all dat worries me is just not being able to shove me away from enjoyin myself. Hehehe… But I cant live in dat fantasy land forever (I dun care… I still want 2 live like dat). As time passes by … as I slowly grow up and enter da REAL WORLD, I have a whole new set of fear : Losing my friends & luv ones.
I remember when we were young, we always promised each other to stay “Friends FOREVER” or some shit like, “I’m always here for you!”. Da same person who promised me ‘You can always count on me‘… actually turn around and stabbed me front back left right , and left me there to bleed to death. Leaving me without any word.
I’m so sick and tired of acting like I’m fine because truthfully, I’m not. I can’t even talk to people without being so incredibly sad. Whatever happen to da beautiful memories we used to share? Where have put all da promises dat you were STRONGLY vow to me? Dont they mean anything to ‘em at all?
And I acted like it didn’t hurt, and for a while, I didn’t think it did… But da tears are here and I now realize dat it hurt more than anything in the world. What upsets me is not dat they lied to me, but dat from now on I can longer believe ‘em nor anyone called ‘FRENS’.
It’s really funny how you can grow away from your friends, when just a few years ago they were da most important people in your life. Maybe not all friendships are meant to be saved…Maybe we’re meant to spend a certain part of our lives with certain people ..and move on..
I guess . . I’ll just have to learn to deal with these fucked up people.
I guess . . not everyone in life is gonna stay true.
I guess . . I’ll just have to learn to forget about da people . . who forgot about me.
I guess . . Sometimes growing up means growing APART.
*I just cant xplain why of all a sudden I feel so emotionally unstable… Just bare wit me aint…*?
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Why do I do da things I do?
Earlier I was talking to my friend (actually I was chattin wit her liao).
And at? da end of our conversation I wondered why we do? da things we do, why I do? da things I do. No matter how useless, no matter how stupid, no matter how totally self-destructive they sometimes are. I still do them.
In her case, she finds her situation perfectly fine so I let her be (yeah rite… She was just pretending so dat I wont start wit my usual ‘lecture’). But often times, in my case, I am NOT perfectly fine with some of my utterly annoying habits. I still overanalyze until it hurts, I still insist on doing things “my way” such as cramming, and staying up late at night, and downing way toooo much coffee or even spend most of my money on shoppin. I know, it’s unhealthy. But I do it still. Just like when people smoke even though they believe it’s bad for them. Same thing.
So yeah, why DO I do the things I do, here are some of my hypotheses (mcm saintis la pulak…harharhar):
- I tend to think and analyze too much to? sum? point? dat every minute detail is mercilessly dissected.It gives me a headache but I do it because it makes me feel I have control over things (As if lor…). It makes me feel? dat I understand? da situation and? da way things are. It makes me anticipate and prepare for what’s to happen next.? ?
- I am stubborn. It’s not? dat it was a determined choice. It’s? da way I am because it makes me feel? dat I, again, have control. Maybe also because of this thing called Pride. Damn pride (From other point I would say it was my ego…).
- I binge. I binge on food. I shop impulsively. And dat’s where I lack control. I do it because it is in these moments that I feel free and uninhibited.? Dat I can let go for even just a bit.
- And lastly, why do I keep myself restricted to my comfort zone? Why do still insist on things? dat aren’t meant for me, insisting on people who’ll disappoint me? Why can’t I let down my guard?Why can’t I have more faith in me? And? da answer to these questions continue to make? my? head spins? and ask why we have to be sooo complicated.Why do we have to make promises to others and to ourselves? Why is there always this spot of gray?
So here I am again, doing the things I do because maybe in doing them, I get to keep my sanity. Don’t you think? hehehe…(”,)
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TAURUS 2007 Horoscope
Ola again guyz… Like always, I was wondering around peoples blog, readin those post they did…I notice dis ‘Horoscope 2007′ keeps on popping out in every single blog dat I’ve visited (WAS copied & pasted is more like it). So any way, I figure ”Hye, there’s no harm 2 actually post dis thingy in my blog since majority r doin so”, and so here it is… My 2007 Horoscope…
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OVERVIEW: Optimism will help you break out of any routines that you want to be free of this year. Focusing on your idealistic approach to life will afford you exciting new opportunities in education and travel. You love exploring the philosophical side of things. Making your home and family environment comfortable is a high priority. Your nurturing desires will return many rewarding opportunities as you build harmonious relationships in your family. Besides needing to work hard to form strategic alliances, you will find groups of people to support you in your business and financial concerns.
Your down-to-earth communication skills will benefit you greatly in your social life, and you will attract many new opportunities with your friends. Your visionary and original ideas create insight for others to follow and find their own true path in life. Directing your energy in new ways will bring you lots of good insight into your own needs. People view you as an authority in your career; you bring positive and idealistic changes to the workplace and you act in a responsible way. The risks you take are intellectually evaluated first before you put them into action.You’re able to handle the social demands put upon you this year and work things out in a constructive way. You will gain tremendous financial benefits from all your hard work. Business will be very profitable and you really learn how to integrate your gains into your daily life. You definitely will leave a legacy behind you for all your good work. You have an intense focus on personal transformation and feel deeply connected to others. Your big heart will bring you love and harmony in all your personal relationships. You’ll feel very fulfilled and loving this year. Enjoy!
CAREER: This is an ideal year for you to excel in a service occupation, most likely healthcare. You may experience some changes in your goals and group affiliation. The challenge is to make yourself available to others through collective action and your progressive ideals for social reform. Being serious-minded and an excellent worker gives a clear sense of what is important to you.
In early spring, you may feel a need to keep things to yourself so as not to upset the apple cart. When you make up your mind to do something, you are quite determined and stay focused. You have an innate sense of who you are and where you want to be, and that’s where you’ll be found: being ambitious, vigorous, careful and always able to reach your goals. You don’t speak without a purpose. You love variety in your life, and your great versatility will make this a year to remember.You constantly perceive the world around you and notice every last detail. Figuring things out on a intellectual level is thrilling to you. Your assimilation of ideas is excellent and you enjoy having conversations with almost anybody, and are sure to have many-an-interesting chat in 2007. Work will be as important to you as maintaining relationships with people around you. You’ll receive a lot of recognition in helping others because of your compassion. You make a significant contribution toward creating a more loving world, based on humanitarian ideals. You may also do well in music this year because of your appreciation of its theoretical platform. Your work must be spiritually satisfying to be interesting and motivating, and this is a promising time to make that a daily reality.
LOVE: In 2007, physical comfort will be a high priority for you. You’ll find great pleasure spending time at fitness clubs and enjoying the luxury of massage and bodywork. It’s important for you to stay in good shape and feel strong and healthy. Your strong desire for partnership is clearly emanating from your energy field. You are pleasant, attractive and have a happy-go-lucky nature, which will attract people to you like bees to honey. You’ll feel comfortable and secure as you get a positive response from just about everyone you encounter.
You work hard on being generous and take pride in having people like you. Your sexual needs will be fulfilled, and security will come to you when your values and emotions are clearly defined. You prefer an idealistic and philosophical partner with strong values like your own. At the beginning of the year, that special someone might just be the one as love waltzes into your life when you least expect it. You need someone who loves sensual comforts as much as you do.By the end of the year, your passion makes you truly believe you have found your right life partner and you may start thinking about settling down, or just becoming more relaxed in your relationship. You’ll enjoy getting to know each other and developing a sustained quality in your passion. You realize how important feeling holistically connected is to developing a lasting relationship. You need to break through old limitations and boundaries. Your affection can change drastically in the way you express yourself, so let this be the year you learn to share your heart with clarity. Enthusiastically giving yourself to another is the idealistic part of you who likes to share love. You and your lover are sure to feel like you’re in heaven in ‘07!
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Do u think u've understand all there is to a gurl? Think again…
Well… well…well… What do we have here? Actually I was going through sum articles in sum gurly gurlish website & kinda bump into dis? article.? I find it quite? fasinating… Erm..errr…? Actually just wanna let all those guys who thought they noe so much about ‘gurls & their behaviour’ to re-think about it over again and hope dis post could help ‘em along da way. Enjoy!
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Realize that the girl holding onto u..
is PERFECT in their own special way.
The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you…
Always remember that.
She can always walk away and up,
getting someone else who can love her
more.
For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her
already,
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for you.
There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you
are loving
her now,
fufill her every need and love her as
much as she
loves you.
Understand that.
Girls have a huge guilty concience.
…imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today…
and then you cheat on her by hugging
and kissing
another gal.
and then you run back to her…
and u do the same….
but you see love in her eyes…
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.
She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything
you do.
Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don’t break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won’t wanna regret letting go of that special
girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the least
you
can do is to give her unconditional love as she
has given to you.
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Resolutions – to stick or not to stick
I dunno where should I start wit dis post actually. I’m now OFFICIALLY over here which I hope dat I will throughout da whole year cause its already a new year rite… So I figure it should be a start for a new beginning for me (Well… I noe I have previous post here. Dun remind me about dat).
Dis year is gonna be a fresh start 4 me wit loads of resolutions (Mostly from years before dis … which I’m still working on), happenings & most of all, happiness. Yes, I am taking this happiness stuff? heavily & seriously. Last year, my outmost priority was – have less arguments with ‘HIM’ & try to be tolerant towards ‘HIM’.Nevertheless, I tried at da beginning & things just got outta hands even before March. The arguments was endless. We tried sleeping on argument, breaking off (we never really did. We’re just too ATTACHED … as if), shouting at one another (dat would be me…hehehe) , silent treatment & whatever normal COUPLES do. It never worked and at da end I just couldn’t take it any longer. So, we broke off? (there goes my 5th relationship…screw it liao). Therefore I failed dis resolution.
My 2nd priority was – study harder & try not to skip any of the tutorial nor lecture classes.
I kinda keep it up with dis resolution cause I skipped mostly elective classes which is not a compulsory subject (but I still have to sit for dat paper as I needed it for my CGPA… I guess). Da rest of da tutorials are alright cause I never got any complain letters from uni (thumbs up!… Yey!). But I did skipped quite a few of lectures as I couldn’t wake up on time or just being lazy. Therefore, I could say passed this resolution!
The 3rd was – spend less & save more.
I FAIL without futher xplaination. Enough said. Case close.
The 4th was – be a good daughter to my parents.
I kinda failed this cause I am still the same old me. Sorry mummy & daddy. I know you guys loved me a lot & give only the best to me. I will try not to disappoint you guys in any other way.
So yes….I failed 3 out of da 4 resolutions I made. A big achievement to me cause I did at least stick my butt to one of it. I really have to complete all the resolutions I am gonna make this year, or else, sumone would just be laughing at me!
1st of all, I MUST study up. It’s da last sem for me for da 2006/2007 academic year (but hey… I’ve just started my degree level dy… thank god!) & I want to give my best like how I did when I was in lower secondary (yes…I turned to a lazy ass after form3 with guys & shopping & bla bla bla…). I have wasted nearly 2 whole year slacking & I am not gonna repeat this again (Yeah… Kinda motivated rite now…ahaks!). I dowan to waste my parents’ money anymore (Well, sum of it came from YTM but hey I still have 2 pay later if I dun work my butt off)….I feel guilty. For da 1st time ever, I feel guilty for those things I did dat disappointed them so much. I want them to be proud of me & not feel disappointed with me. I want to make them proud. I want to make my family proud. (Yey! Go me!)
I MUST then spend less & well well, I have been keeping up with it (Well… Not entirely but will be soon. Hehehe…). I hope dat. I could keep it up esp after I dropped RM50 on the way to…? er, Cant remember….suay betul.
Temper & sensitive is not a stranger word to me anymore as I have a huge temper (Yup… I do realize dat, TQ). A temper dat no one could stand (he’s [Papa] gonna explode at me soon because of my temper… Hehehe…). I MUST try to control dat bitchy temper of mine. It has been giving me some hard times & I want it to go away PERMENANTLY (Well… Not totally). I want to be a better person. Someone dat is lovable (paiseh).
Lastly, I have to try to mend our relationship. I do not want to jeopardise it as I dowan to go through those bad relationship thingy over & over again (I’m sick of it!). I want it to work. I am afraid of losing him & I do not want to hide or pretend dat I am not. I shall not elaborate further on our stuffs….but Papa, I promise you that I will try to make things work with all my heart (Wah… ‘Promising’? So not me!).
P.S: Da ‘HIM’ dat I mention early in dis entry are my ex-boyfriends (Yup… ex-boyfriendS… With a very huge ‘S’ there)
P.S.S: ‘PAPA’ which I’m refering to in dis entry is my current bf (You noe who)
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Zodiak Compatibility
Finding Out You and Your Partner’s CompatibilityFirst you have to know you and your partner’s Chinese Zodiac signs.
First you have to know you and your partner’s Chinese Zodiac signs.Then find out your group number according to the zodiac signs and the birth month in the table below.
Zodiac Sign Group? ?
Rat, Horse, Rabbit, Rooster: 1? ?
Tiger, Monkey, Snake, Pig: 3?
Dragon, Dog, Ox, Ram: 4?
Birth Month Group
February, May, August, November: 1?
January, April, July, October: 3?
March, June, September, December: 4
Sample:
Let’s imagine the boyfriend is an ox born in March (4,4) and the girlfriend is a rabbit born in January (1,3).
Add the two numbers for the boyfriend (4+4=8) and then add the two numbers for the girlfriend (1+3=4).
Add those two results (8+4=12).
The sum is the number you would look in the table below, which tells you the compatibility.
? COMPATIBILITY
4 ~ Stability but both are too stubborn
? This couple is more likely associated to be friends because they are so comfortable with each other, which makes their family environment very inviting and youthful. But both parties have to be careful to drop their stubbornness or there will come a time of great pain. They also should not hurt each other’s pride.?
5 ~ Need Sexual Harmony
? Things don’t always work according to the plan and this will be a struggle for this couple. Both people want walk toward a different direction, which would end up as a severe problem. The birth of a child will resolve this problem and both will realize the importance of understanding the other person. It is a necessity to change the bedroom environment for this couple every once in a while.
6 ~ Match Made In Heaven
? Destiny could not bring together a more blessed couple than this one and problems for them are never too big enough to solve. There will be continuous sunshine as their lives go on. They will enjoy raising their children and the family’s customs will be passed on to the next generation. If there is anything to watch out for it is the health for this match made in heaven.?
7 ~ Devotion
? This couple shares an abundance of love and they are so compatible that it is easy for one to pull and the other to push, so that all matters of affair are completed much faster. These two will make sure that none of their children will suffer and the whole family will sustain a level of peace without any turbulences occurring as during their lives. Sometimes it is better to hide some of the zealous enthusiasm for the relationship to work better.
8 ~ Passionate
? This couple knows that the existence of a being and the home affairs alike start from scratch and progress. That is why they will not be worried about material possessions when they start their journey together. Their fortitudes are strong that they will become prosperous together. What they have to watch out for is not to forget their manners, even as the days go by together.
9 ~ A Desolate Family
? There lies a vast difference between this couple’s opinions that this may have an effect mentally as time goes by. It may develop to more profound problems if there doesn’t exist self-sacrifice or a broad generosity for the other person. Between love and hate, exists happiness when one abandons high expectations but rather empties it out.?
10 ~ Success, Luck
? This relationship built upon cordial affection that there is no troubling sign in regards to their happiness. There will be a great amount of bliss in this family and there is also the fortune of raising a child that will become an important figure in society. If there is a flaw in this relationship it will be the short separation they will survive during their early years of marriage.
11 ~ Love’s Obstacle And Heated Words
? Both people expect to receive than to give to the other person, which makes this a very selfish rendezvous. There will be too many complaints eventually a wall will exist between the two, where communication is defunct. If this relationship wants to survive, both have to introspective and realize what they could do for the other person first before they think about themselves.?
12 ~ The book of Changes Unfolds-Peace Occurs In The Later Years
? Although this harmonious couple acts as one body, there will be a few pitfalls during their lives’ span, where slight competition between the two will exist. Friction is always present in a couple’s relationship but this will only last temporarily for these two. If they both keep an open mind, they are destined to happily grow old together.
13 ~ Love’s Progress-Strong Jealousy
? The tree’s natural resource of survival is water and this couple will live in beautiful harmony just like that. The wife shows devotion to her husband and the husband adheres to his wife’s wishes. Life for them is so wonderful that others may be jealous of that fact. They will be blessed with great wealth including material possession, health, and loving children. If there exists a weakness, it is love’s jealousy on both parts that would account for some distrust.
14 ~ Family Discord-Emotional Ignorance
? You are not incompatible like water and fire but living together may bring lots of pain into this relationship. There is a high likelihood that you may not persevere together due to the strain. Both have to be conscious about trying to understand the other person and be willing to give in at times. It is just as important to utilize intelligence in a relationship as in school or work.?
15 ~ A Heartbreaking Couple-Late Marriage Advisable
? Your passion quickly sets on fire and loses its spark just as fast in this relationship. There are many layers of complications between you two and thus will suffer many hardships together. No matter how many you try to break up, you are inseparable due to fate. If you want to avoid the stormy weathers, then decide to get married later.
16 ~ Perfect Combination
? This couple will always have a newlywed atmosphere around them. There is great, vital energy in the couple’s affection and there will be lots of laughter going on in this family. With the couple’s initial meeting develops a favorable change of luck for both of them and this is why they develop affectionate feelings for each other. If both will pursuit to work together toward one goal, their fortune in everything will multiply in many folds. A person who was born in winter matches with someone who was born in summer and vice versa in order to balance the cosmic dual force
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