angelic.Devil

RULES: do the following without complains. Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours. Leave a tag on the person’s tag board to say he/she has been tagged. Start your post by, “I have been tagged” then do this.

YOUR TEN FAVORITES:
COLORS: Black, Blue and White
FOOD: T-bone steak, Pizza, Spaghetti, Donuts…etc
SONG(S): “Where you are” – Nick Lachey & Jessica Simpson, “If I open up my heart to you” – Amanda Perez, “Anytime” – Kelly Clarkson & Justin Guarini, “Timeless” – Kelly Clarkson & Justin Guarini, “I don’t wanna fight” – Westlife and the list goes on
MOVIE(S): A Walk to remember, Titanic, Lord of the ring trilogy, Twilight Saga and the list goes on and on
SPORT(S): Volleyball, Basketball, Dodgeball…etc
SEASON(S): Spring, Autumn and Winter.
FLAVOR(S): Chocolate and Vanilla
COUNTRY(S): Australia, Switzerland, France, London, Germany and Italy
THING(S): All my teddy bears, my shoe and handbag collection

YOUR NINE CURRENTS:
CURRENT MOOD: Sleepy ~
CURRENT CLOTH: Black super short pants, white baby-T and a cute headband
CURRENT DESKTOP: A picture of Rapunzel and her prince
CURRENT TOE NAIL: Colorless. Not in the mood in painting it
CURRENT TIME: 12.32am
CURRENT ANNOYANCE: ….
CURRENT THOUGHT: Result coming out next week, shopping, movies
CURRENT SONG: “Let me fall” – Alexz Johnson
CURRENT CHATTER: Papakins

YOUR 8 FIRSTS:
BOYFRIEND: A guy name Asrul, back when I was in Form 1
CRUSH: My primary school best friend, Amir Arafat
MOVIE: Little Mermaid
PIERCING: When I was 7 years old in Sabah.
LIE: Ever since I know how to lie. LOL!
MUSIC: “One, two, three, four, five… Once I caught a fish a life. Six, seven, eight, nine, ten… Then I let it go again. When did you let it go, Because it bite my finger so, Which finger did it bite, The little finger on my right”
TOY: Barbie and Ken
CRY: 18^th May 1987.

YOUR 6 LASTS:
LAST DRINK: Starbuck’s Coffee
LAST CAR RIDE: My mum’s wira.
LAST CRUSH: During my alpha year in MMU Melaka, Hafiz Hamid
LAST MOVIE SEEN: Avatar
LAST PHONE CALL: From my auntie regarding a position opening for a Service Engineer in her company
LAST CD PLAYED: “Lewat Tengah Malam”, an Indonesian ghost movie

5 THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
Black short pants, white baby-T, a cute headband, contact lens and a scarf around my neck

4 THINGS YOU HAVE DONE TODAY:
i. Watch DVD movies at home
ii. Online surfing/Facebook/chatting with my friends’
iii. House chores
iv. Play with all my seven hamsters

3 THINGS YOU HEAR RIGHT NOW:
i. Rain drops outside the house
ii. Music playing on my Yahoo! Music Jukebox
iii. My parents conversation at the dining table

THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
i.  My mobile phone and laptop
ii. My heels and handbags

1 THING I DO WHEN I’M BORED:
Watch all my movies/tv series collection on laptop

WHO I WANT TO DO THIS:
Whoever wants to do it

After many years of suffering bad eyesight, I finally decided to get myself a pair of contact lens today! Many are surprised when they find out that I wasn’t wearing one before this. Yup… I sometimes torture myself by not wearing my specs. 

It was these last few years that it got so bad that I can’t even read the menu over the counter. It got to the point that I can’t take it anymore and so today finally i bought them. The optician gave me a shock when they say I might have astigmatism. Hope it’s not so bad and that it won’t go up any higher.

I wore contacts before but only for a month and that was it. I’m surprised that i was able to put them on quite ‘easily’ last time but this time round, I spent half an hour just to get 2 of them on! My sister was laughing her heart out watching me.

As I’m writing this, it still feels a bit uncomfortable but i can see so much better now. It’s like a whole new world. How i envy those with perfect eyesight.

So 2009 has come to a closure and now we’ve welcomed 2010. I know many who had their shares of ups and downs but if i had to say one thing, it’s good riddance 2009. Not in a bad ‘thank God it’s over’ kinda way though but more like ‘phew’… I’ve made it through’ and I’m still in one piece! You never know what you’re running into till the last corner and bang you walked into a wall.

Did you ever realize that life has a way of making you think that you’ve always got things under control only to find that our grasp just wasn’t tight enough or for whatever reason and it runs like sand through your fingers? Taking precautions might be a good idea for once.

But anyway, how’s the resolution counter doing this year? I think i have a whole list of them but i just never bothered to sort them out. I’m just not that disciplined to stick to one anyway. I do however have a goal this year and that’s as far as i would mention. Not much but hey, it’s just my way of saying I’m still alive.

New semester up next so that’s a biggie for me. Hopefully I’ll get to go back and have a lil frenzy time with my friends!

So what’s cooking this year?

This is a timeless question that spans the generations. If you ask ten different people for their opinion on the subject you will likely get ten different answers and reasons for why they believe what they believe. My opinion – it depends on the people involved.

I think there are some people who can form friendships with the opposite sex and have it remain a friendship and nothing more. They are aware of their own personal boundaries and have the ability to enforce these boundaries at will. Most important, they are also able to distinguish the difference between friendship and a romantic relationship, which may be the key to their success.

There are others, however, who are not able to form successful friendships with the opposite sex. They may be too easily tempted by kindness and flirtation, or they may not be able to easily distinguish the difference between a friendship and a romantic relationship. Some may even have difficulty either setting boundaries or enforcing them. Regardless of the reason, some people simply should not form friendships with the opposite sex because it just doesn’t work for them. Regardless of which category you fall into, it is important to understand that given the nature of the male/female relationship there are always risks associated with forming these friendships.

In order to form a true friendship there must be an element of trust between both parties. This trust, this understanding, can cause a great deal of confusion if you’re not careful. If this person becomes your confidant, for example, and you find yourself turning to them when life becomes difficult, or when you need advice, this understanding can easily be confused with romantic attraction. If you’ve ever had a friend or acquaintance that you suddenly find yourself looking at differently, in a more attractive and romantic way, then you know how easily the line between friendship and romantic attraction can be crossed.

Forming friendships with the opposite sex can become particularly complicated if you are already involved in a romantic relationship with a significant other. This is especially true if you turn to your “friend” for advice about your relationship. Though turning to your friend may seem harmless, you could easily become attracted to their sympathy, compassion and ultimately to them, especially if you are in a vulnerable state of mind. This could not only cause mixed emotions for you, but also friction between you and your significant other.

Also, as genuine of a friend as this person may seem, how can you ever be truly sure that their intention, or that the advice that they give you is meant with your best interest in mind? It’s true that not everybody would take advantage of your vulnerability and intentionally (or even subtly) lead you astray. The truth, however, is that you never really know what is going on in someone else’s mind and so you can never really be sure of their true intent. For all you know this person is just waiting for you to be single again so that they can build on the relationship that you have already allowed them to establish with you. After all, why is it that they are taking valuable time out of their hectic life to console you? Why would they break their own plans simply to listen to you complain about your relationship? And why do they care so much about your personal life if not to become more of a part of it?

My intent is not to evoke fear, or to advise you not to trust anybody of the opposite sex. My intent is to simply illustrate how the male/female friendship is extremely complex. If you insist on forming friendships with the opposite sex, at least take a few minutes to set some ground rules. Decide what you will and will not discuss with this person, and make sure that your relationship with this friend is clearly defined in your own mind before you choose to pursue it. If this sounds like too much work, play it safe and simply don’t turn to your girl/guy friend for consolation.

Everybody’s different. Some people can form successful friendships with members of the opposite sex, while others are better off staying clear of them. There is no right or wrong answer because no situation is ever black and white. Just remember that sometimes it’s not so much a matter of whether or not you choose to form these friendships, as it is about the boundaries you set for yourself and your willingness to stick to them that can make all the difference.

P.S: To anyone who got offended by this post, well it is for you. DEAL with it! Don’t whine your way out of it.

Drew Seeley is a very active guy behind the scenes. He’s been singing for Disney for years. He made tracks for the ‘High School Musical’ Soundtrack and sung on some of the Disney Mania CDs. Drew grew up in Canada and performed in musicals after school. One day, he up and left Canada for California to start his career. He starred with Selena Gomez in the move ‘Another Cinderella Story’ and is appearing as Prince Eric in the Broadway version of ‘The Little Mermaid.’

Ah, someone’s had an affair and now is resorting in finding a suitable way to apologize with. I am afraid my post(s) are way too cynical for such lofty purposes, my friend. However, one can’t help but wonder what exactly this friend of mine was searching for. Though affair obviously has a wide range of meanings, I can only think of the amorous kinds right now.

1. My friend is sorry about having an affair, and hence wants to mollify the person he is probably in a relationship with. (Bleedin’ obvious, I know.)

2. My friend decided to have an affair, and made a bad choice – let’s say Missy X. Missy X lacked passion, time or suitable inclination. Or became too clingy. So my friend goes around finding for the phrase attempting to pacify his heart. (What, you don’t read poetry to tide over a certain mood?)

3. Missy Y decided to ask my friend to have an affair with her. My friend who didn’t want to do a very harsh job of rejecting the affair-seeker, wanted to send a message that said, “sorry babe no affair possibility”.

4. My friend wrote a poem about having a torrid affair, and the poem wasn’t really appreciated. He is trying to figure out how other affair-poetry-writers manage to get out of murky situations. Hahaha…

None of these circumstances appear particularly pleasant. My dear friend, I hope you find the right way/idea/poem. Ahem, but if you did cheat on someone, a poem isn’t really going to do the trick. Trust me, I know.

I like this picture

Can you feel my heart trembling
hear it beating louder than before?
I must be changing, I don’t
know who I am anymore

Here I am, so willing
For you to come over and take it all
When was I so foolish
to make myself so vulnerable?

Can you feel it in the air
as dawn is sliding in so slow
Something’s changed, I feel different
and I just want to let myself go

Foolish me for dreaming dreams
That never turn out the way they seem
And foolish me, the loving fool
blazing from the shadow of you

From the shadow of you

Can you feel my heart trembling?
It’s too fragile to play games
The sun is too hot, I am
flourishing in the shade

In the shadow of you

Here I am, so willing
For you to come over and take it all
When was I so foolish
to make myself so vulnerable
Here I am, so stupid
letting myself trip and fall
I still don’t know if it’s a good thing
that I’m so happy in your shadow

In the shadow of you

Come catch me, I’m weak now
But you’re the weakest spot
When did I become something I’m not

The Backstreet Boys said it best: “Quit playin’ games with my heart”. I feel like getting on top of a mountain and sing that to every guy who has ever effed with me or to any other girls in that matter.

What the eff is up with the games? Why do guys do one things (kiss you) and then confuse the hell out of you? Why do they play with your head so you can’t do anything but think of them, emotionally eat, then think about them some more?

Why can’t we all just say what we mean and stop making calculated moves? It’s all a big waste of time and I’m sick of it. If you like me, tell me. If you don’t, fine. But don’t purposely not call me because you want me to think about you and then, just when I’m on the brink of being over it, say something cute in a text message.

Guys make me crazy and I needed to know why they feel the need to do so. Apparently, it’s our entire fault…

Leona Lewis – I See You

(I see you, I see you)

Walking through a dream, I see you
My light and darkness breathing hope of new life
Now I live through you and you through me, enchanted
I pray in my heart that this dream never ends

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love

You teach me how to see all thats beautiful
My senses touch your world I never pictured
Now I give my hope to you, I surrender
I pray in my heart that this world never ends

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life
I offer my love for you

And my heart was never open
And my spirit never free
To the world that you have shown me
But my eyes could not envision
All the colours of love and of life evermore,
Evermore

I see me through your eyes
Breathing new life, flying high
Your love shines the way into paradise
So I offer my life as a sacrifice
I live through your love
I live through your love

I see you
I see you

A friend of mine told me that she’s considering having a “Friends with Benefits” relationship with a friend of hers. I’m not opposing nor am I supporting the idea of “Friends with Benefits”, but this kind of relationship need to be well thought over before indulging into it.

“Friends with Benefits” is a code for “Friends using each other.” In this kind of relationship, a couple can kiss or do whatever, and have no obligation to date, be in a relationship, care about each other or even call the other person afterward. From a girl who once considered the “Friends with Benefits” situation and even was the one to suggest it to a girlfriend not so long ago, let me say that it’s 100% messed up. Most of the time, the guy gets the benefits and the girl is left wanting more.

Here’s why…

Men are more physically oriented, while women are emotionally oriented. When women get physical, our heart comes with–either in full force or we suppress our emotions, which causes damage to our hearts. Often we even suppress our emotions because of previous hurts or fear of future hurt. Men’s hearts are attached to physical acts as well, but their emotions aren’t as easily or as strongly connected to physical intimacy as women’s. Especially in our sex-saturated world, therefore, it can be easier for men to be physical with a woman and then just walk away. The woman, however, is left with both her body and heart abandoned. Not knowing that its emotional fulfillment she ultimately desires, many women move on to another “Friend with Benefits” to get more physical attention, but eventually it will leave her heart abandoned again. Although a man will also miss out on emotional growth and depth in sexuality, it’s the woman who bears the brunt of the hurt, loss and confusion in these situations.

From a broader perspective, the “Friends with Benefits” situation perpetuates a dangerous mentality for society. Because of original sin, how men are wired, and since some men have not learned true respect for women, many guys can use, abuse, leave, and not care at all for women they have been with.

Even if you want to avoid relationship issues (which can be good and healthy for an average, busy teen), don’t let your unconscious mind even start to believe that the emotional vacancy of being a friend with benefits is actually “beneficial”, unless you can deal with the consequences.

When the time comes, you deserve a real relationship that includes interest in your heart, mind, body and soul. You deserve a phone call and genuine concern. You deserve a real friendship in which neither you nor he desire to use each other—a friendship that only grows into romance when you’re both ready for the emotional responsibility (he is having your heart, you having his).

In addition, since the friends with benefits situation throws relationship rules to the wind, it almost always throws purity and healthy physical progression to the wind. With so much at risk and such short-term benefits, why waste your time? Proceed if you dare

A “Friend with Benefits” (FWB) is a guy or girl that’s your friend, which we do the friends stuff i.e. hang out, chill, socialize, go to the movies with other friends, talk about potential significant others but the fundamental difference between a regular friend and a FWB is that you have some form of sexual relations. And No, it does not make what you have a relationship because you are not emotionally attached the way couples are.

A Fcuk Buddy is a guy/girl who you have sexual relations with but both of you have your own friend circles and you don’t do ‘friendly’ stuff. You may just meet up at the usual time, do your thing and that’s it, nothing else after, before or in between. In other words a Fcuk buddy is a real life dildo that you can use and put away when you’re done and generally it evolves into friends with benefits scenario.

A Relationship is where a man and a woman are in it for companionship, compromise, ‘love’, affection, romance, business, money, and to fill that emotional longing for a ’soul mate’.

Let’s discuss in detail all three:

Friend with Benefits

It is imperative that you choose a friend with benefits wisely, that person must be willing to treat you as platonic as possible in the presence of other people, must not show any form of jealousy when you are in the presence of a ‘potential’ and must try not to let the sexual relations come up frequently in everyday conversations, in other words, both worlds must be kept somewhat separate. If one begins to express any one of these traits someone needs to draw the line or a decision must be made, whether to take this to the next level (dating) or end it where it is and remain JUST friends.

Fcuk Buddies

It is imperative that you choose your fcuk buddy wisely. State the ground rules early what this ‘relationship’ is all about, what you want out of it and ensure that you stick with it, chances are you may have a boyfriend/girlfriend but you have that little thing (fcuk buddy) on the side so he or she MUST be able to keep their mouth shut and act accordingly. If things start changing, it is best to nip it in the bud or make a decision as to where you want it to go.

Relationship

It is ABSOLUTELY imperative that you choose this person very wisely, I cannot stress that point enough. Make sure you know what you want from a relationship and make sure the person you choose can give it, don’t think that half way in the person is gonna magically improve where he/she fell short, it may happen but highly unlikely. If you know it’s not gonna last long, don’t bother. Someone will get hurt. It’s rare that people make a clean break. And, if it is gonna end short then chances are it wasn’t a relationship in the first place.

Things to bear in mind

Everything has its purpose so if any of the above not fulfilling its purpose then you need to edit the title or forget it. What are the purposes? That is up to you. I think though that a fcuk buddy is the person you have because you can’t be bothered with the relationship thing or like i said before he/she is the person on the side. Generally the sex with this person is great. The FWB is a the person who is just there, you had a breakup or you can’t be bothered with the relationship thing and that friend is there to provide a little relief from the stresses of life, the sex is sometimes great but most of the time passable. But you don’t mind coz like I said the FWB is just filling a void. A relationship is everything and can be draining at times.

Notes

Please don’t enter into any of these for the wrong reason. It WILL backfire. Don’t start because you think that eventually it will change. Don’t start because you think that’s what they want and definitely don’t start to get back at someone.

Remember we are all human and we are very complex so some of these ideas may vary depending of the individuals involved and the situation

AVATAR  is an epic visual masterpiece that you’ve all been waiting for and it succeeds in everything it tries to do (visually).The overall look is stunning beyond belief, the special effects are impeccable.

Paraplegic war veteran, Jake Sully is brought to another planet called Pandora in place of his brother with the promise of getting his legs back if he helps the government on a mission; to mine the moon’s precious minerals in order to stave off an energy catastrophe back home. Pandora is inhabited by a primitive race called the Na’vi; resemble 10-foot-tall, taffy-pulled, long-tailed, yellow-eyed versions of the Blue Man Group and speak what sounds like a cross between Maori and Yiddish, are understandably unfriendly. Jake is sent in to learn their ways so that he can help relocate them and the humans can take over.

I give the movie a near perfect rating. Perfect in the sense that it is perfect escapist entertainment, contains a relevant message, has characters that we care about and make sense, and has no annoying scenes or irritating comic relief or goofy characters. So if that happens to be your pet peeves then don’t worry, you won’t walk out annoyed. If you are looking for a movie with the most typical surprise ending in the world though you won’t find it here.

P.S: Watched this awesome movie with Papakins, Nasrulnizam, Anique, Syazmin & Jeff yesterday. It was worth it, every penny.

P.S.S: I want to watch this movie again! Who want to  me?

After watching SANTAU, I couldn’t believe that it was a Malay horror movie. Why? Because it carried the suspense and terror of a Indonesian horror flick (i.e POCONG, KUNTILANAK…etc).

Directed by Azhari Zain, this film succeeds in setting the atmosphere and building-up the story. Filmed with an eerie setting , it starts very slow then progresses to a big finish. For me, this works because Azhari manage to tap into our collective fears of what could be lurking in the dark. There are no big bangs, just sudden loud noises, constant shrieking and overdone look-behind-you shots that work effectively.

This mundaneness makes the horror even more believable. The pacing needs a little work though as the shocks kinda get repetitive at some point.

Although I am not a big fan of Malay movies but I do recommend SANTAU to ease your study stress, especially MMU folks .  I think that’s a very good reason to go and watch it… Hahaha. For full enjoyment, watch this film with your friends.

If you want to know more about this movie, just check it out here.

P.S: Watched this movie with Papakins, Nasrulnizam, Anique and Syazmin yesterday.

Born to the Duchess of Kent (Richardson), young Victoria (Blunt) finds herself the sole heir to the throne and under pressure from the Duchess’ advisor Sir John Conroy (Mark Strong) to sign a regency order; Conroy is hungry for power and this order will allow him rule England through the Duchess who will be Queen in her daughter’s place. Into this comes Prince Albert (Friend), a Belgian manipulated and schooled by Victoria’s uncle, King Leopold, to woo Victoria and put his own family on the English throne. The last thing Albert was expecting was to fall in love with Victoria for real, but soon finds himself frozen out by Victoria’s trusted advisor Lord Melbourne (Bettany). The intricacies of politics and love are to the fore of The Young Victoria; a drama inhabited by characters that all seem related to Machiavelli such is the scheming shenanigans going on here. The film really comes alive when it concentrates on the burgeoning love affair between Albert and Victoria – the love between them is sweet and, more importantly, believable with Blunt and Friend exhibiting some tasty but reserved charisma together.

Young Victoria creates a world of rich detail inhabited by a woman clashing against social constraints and expectations. It’s pure escapism and unashamedly romantic.

*Thumbs Up*

Sometimes you have to put walls around you;

not to keep people out,

but to see who cares enough

to break them down just to be with you.

My state of mind
Has kind of got the best of me
I need you next to me
I’m trying to find
A way that I could get to you
I just wanna get to you

The world I see is perfect now
You’re all around
With you I can breath

{chorus}
Until you’re mine
I have to find
A way to fill this hole inside
I’ve got to fight
Without you here by my side
Until you’re mine
Not gonna be
Even close to complete
I won’t rest until you’re mine
Mine

All lonely inside
I can only hear your voice
Ringing threw the noise
I can find my mind
Keeps on coming back to you
Yeah always back to you

Wanting something out of reach
It’s killing me
And you’re all I see yeah

Until you’re mine
I have to find
A way to fill this hole inside
I’ve got to fight
Without you here by my side
Until you’re mine
Not gonna be
Even close to complete
I won’t rest until you’re mine
Mine

Yes i’m wondering
If we were meant to be
Forget about wanting to soar
I’m ready to begin
Our waiting has to end
Right now
Too late
I’ve got to find a way yeah yeah

Mine
Until you’re mine
Until you’re mine
Without you here by my side
Until you’re mine
Not gonna be
Even close to complete
I wont rest until youre mine

My state of mind
Is finding all the best from me
I need you next to me

A friend of mine once said before he past away, “There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.”

So what will it be for you? Lately, I know that we are all tired of the way we live. I’m just trying to find my way. I guess, I am one of those who fight to find their own way.

I’ve got to move on and be who I am. Don’t want to leave it all behind but when I get my hopes up, I have to watch them fall every time. It’s just too hard to see it all slowly fade away from me. Now, I got to do what’s best for me.

This feeling inside is empty as though as I’m emotionless. I am losing the momentum. Perhaps the feelings built in are growing exponentially and I can’t barely think anymore.

Why is it so hard for us to stop hurting each other when we know that it’s torturing us inside?

People always talk about how great it is to be in love, but I never heard about the downside of love until I fell in love with you. I learned that it isn’t all rosés, flowers and candy. Love is pain, hurt and sorrow.

But at the end of the day if we can still look into each other’s eyes and realize that nothing’s changed, and the love is still there, then I know we have a love that’s worth fighting and hanging on to.

Beware the fakeup. Though it comes in many forms, a fakeup is most easily defined as a fake breakup, or a breakup that doesn’t take.

Some couples are repeat offenders — you know the people I’m talking about. They break up frequently and in dramatic fashion, but you just know they’re going to get back together.

Some breaker-uppers cut off all ties and move on, while others have a tendency to sleep with their exes. It’s tempting for sure, but hooking up with your ex can often precipitate a fakeup and lead to a misguided reconciliation. Often, after several fakeups, the repeat offenders call it quits altogether. (Note: In these cases, it’s best not to badmouth the recent ex, since he or she probably won’t be an ex for long.)

Then, there are couples who fake up but genuinely seem to make it work the second time around. This type of fakeup is different from the first and not as much of a fake out. How about you? Have you ever been guilty of a fakeup? Do you know couples who fake up a lot?

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